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LET'S TALK ABOUT LOVE TODAY!!

I have been trying to avoid this topic but for some reasons, I can’t stop thinking about the people who go day by day without being loved or cared for.

I can’t stop thinking about those people who are waiting and hoping to be loved.
I write this for all those who are on the wait, to gently remind them that they will be okay even if they don’t believe they will.

I remember years ago, I wrote a love letter, hoping the words would convince my receiver of my true love for him. He wrote back to me plainly “find someone who would love you the way you deserve to be loved. You are far too kind for me; you need someone who will reciprocate.” Getting over such a note required hours-days filled with tears and heartache to get the meaning. He broke parts of me which I am unable to fix.

It’s a good thing he responded in his own honest capacity. Sometimes, some things are not meant to work out, no matter how much you want them to.
Sometimes, you get exhausted from fighting for love to stay but give yourself permission to take a break and recharge.

The moment I understood that life should revolve around my own happiness and personal growth, I wrote a note-to-self; “I hope I get to have the courage to let go of the people who leave my heart confused. To have the courage to learn how to let go of a love that won’t love me back. To give myself closure, not to let losses destroy me. And to have the courage to leave behind what’s not meant for me.”

Every piece of you that hurts is a part of you that wants to be loved but does not know how to ask for it or how to receive it or how to allow it seep into the openings.
I read somewhere that said; “there are four types of love one needs and always go where these are fostered and grown.
Physical love, Mental love, Emotional love and Spiritual love.”

They say; “the right path is the one that scares you.” So, never let heartbreak make you a stranger to love, keep searching for the good in everything and you will find it. One day, you will find a love that you’ve been waiting for. There will be an overflow of love out of your chest and you will look for containers to store it.

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  1. WadadaAugust 24, 2023 at 12:19 AM

    Memoirs of Nzime. Kinda emotional.

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    1. Livia_writesAugust 24, 2023 at 1:51 AM

      Aahahaa they are not my memoirs. Just a general write-up, but thank you.

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