Grief still sits in every corner
of all the rooms in my house.
It has lungs and a heartbeat, and it has grown into an everlasting thing.
It's a living, breathing entity that has taken up residence within me, a constant
reminder of what I've lost.
It's a weight that presses down upon my chest, making it hard to breathe, hard
to think, hard to be.
It's been months since the silence
fell, since the laughter stopped, since the tears dried up. But grief remains,
a persistent and unwelcome guest that refuses to leave.
It has revealed who truly stays, even when silence is all I had to offer.
Some have come and gone, their visits brief and fleeting. Others have stayed,
their presence a steady hum in the background of my life.
Grief has a way of testing
relationships, of revealing the depth of people's love and commitment. It's a
crucible that refines the metal of our connections, separating the true from
the false.
And I've been grateful for those who have stayed, who have weathered the storm
of my sorrow, who have held me close and whispered words of comfort in my ear.
But grief is a hard teacher, one
that demands attention and obedience.
It's a taskmaster that requires me to confront the depths of my pain, to wade
through the darkness of my emotions, to face the fears that haunt me.
And yet, even in the midst of such sorrow, there is a strange kind of beauty. A
beauty that is raw and unbridled, a beauty that speaks to the depth of human
emotion.
Grief has taught me to appreciate
the little things, the small moments of beauty that make life worth living.
It has taught me to cherish the memories of loved ones, to hold them close and
dear.
It has taught me to be patient with myself, to allow myself to feel the full
range of emotions that come with loss.
And yet, even as I acknowledge the
lessons of grief, I know that it will always be a burden. A burden that I will
carry with me for the rest of my life, a burden that will shape me and mold me
in ways that I am still discovering.
But I will carry it, I will bear it, because it is a part of me now.
Grief will always be a part of me,
a reminder of what I've lost, of what I've loved.
But it will also be a reminder of what I've gained, of the strength and
resilience that I've discovered within myself.
It will be a reminder of the love that remains, the love that continues to flow
through me like a river.
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