BROKEN PIECES FROM AKU -02

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The last time I thought

I was in love, it was just

mere infatuation

Perhaps I have too much

to bring to a relationship

till I got nothing left to give


I try to force something

that's not just there

begging for reciprocation to

the love I poured in reality

when you never felt the same way


How I wish you were

what I pictured

before you decided that

we cross the line between

love and hate


There are chambers

in my heart

sorrows buried

deep and unspeakable


But I realized that;

It takes guts to set yourself free

and embrace breathtaking mess


So;


I beg God to wash me clean

to wipe the stains of every

memory of you off my veins

So I forget about you - about us


And;


I took myself out of the equation

closed the chapter and turned to

a new page - starting afresh

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