TANGLED IN SHADOWS

In the depths of my unraveling, I'm tempted to surrender
To the siren's whisper, a numbing, sweet thunder
I'd trade the ache of awareness for the calm of the grave
But the echoes of my heartbeat whisper, "You still crave".

To breathe, to feel, to hurt, to rise, to fall
The noose of my past tightens, a relentless, cruel call
I'm suffocating under the weight of what I've done
A prisoner of my memories, forever undone.

The ghosts of my yesterday haunt me, a relentless crew
Reminding me of the shards I've yet to glue
I'm searching for a way out, a glimmer of light
But the shadows they surround me, a perpetual night.

In this darkness, I'm lost, a wanderer without a map
The stars that once guided me, now just a distant trap
I'm clingling to the fragments, the broken, shattered me
Praying for a miracle, a chance to be set free.

But what if the weight of my chains is what keeps me tied?
What if the pain is the only thing that makes me alive?
To let go of the guilt, the shame, the regret and the pain
Is to risk losing the lessons, the growth, the strength I've gained.

And so I'll hold on to the fragments, the shards, the broken glass
And I'll weave them into a rope, a lifeline that will save me at last
I'll rise, I'll fall, I'll learn, I'll grow, I'll heal
And in the darkness, I'll find the light that makes me real.

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