LIVIA'S BOOKLET

Feels like I am dying tonight. They never warned me about these moments. They never told me Healing cannot save me but can only teach me not to experience pain again - to find peace within.   Feels like I am carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. I haven’t felt like myself in years, my sky is down pouring. I have tried holding back my emotions thinking it’s a sign of strength - I am dying. Some days I am tired till my eyes sting. Some nights I am filled with heartache and yearning. I never allow myself the same energy that I radiate onto others because I am a pretender.   I don’t need to know if the ending will be a happy one for it is beyond my control. I don’t need to build walls to keep myself safe or strong. I am so fragile, I can easily break I am so overwhelmed, I can explode.   I have been on probation most of my life. I have walked through madness and gathered a stronger sense of self. I will have so much light inside of me one day and I will run out of places to put